Saturday, April 16, 2011
So, I kinda love making to do lists. I make them all the time and they can be seen throughout my condo. I even have a whiteboard full of things that I need to do.... paint this trim, fill out this form, etc. Then there is my homework list, my summer reading lists, my scrapbooking list, lists I have made to try and keep a cleaning schedule (didn't happen), one I randomly write to keep my brain from imploding. I would say that half the time I don't even use them, but it's nice to take two seconds to organize my thoughts.
Yet, how often do we use to do lists to regain a sense of control in our lives? I know I do because I love to have control; I love to know what is going on, what is expected of me, and how the day will play out. I have come to a place in my life where I need to be ok when I don't finish my to do list. My worth as a person is NOT determined by the amount of stuff I get done in a day. I think in a world that teaches you that you are only successful if you achieve a certain amount of things in a certain amount of time, this is a struggle for many people.
It doesn't need to be that way. Ultimately, God is in control. That doesn't need to be scary or disheartening, but a reminder that He knows us so much; our struggles and hurts, triumphs and joys, yet He is always watching over us. We are not alone on a solitary path of life. So maybe it is time that we all let go of the to do lists a little?
But you know what? I am still gunna write things on my to do list that I have already done just so I can cross it off and feel like I have accomplished something. Is that wrong??
Tuesday, April 12, 2011
Well. I have not done well with this whole blogging thing. I got overwhelmed with life and then stressed by it, because those are two very different things in my life. Then I was like why would I blog... everyone and there sister has a blog and I will just get lost in the funk. It seemed like to much work and I was too busy. Well I am done with excuses. I am gunna be real. I have classes til the first week in May and not much is gunna change before then but I am taking the whole summer off to do all those things I have been wanting to do, like paint, make jewelry, take pictures, read, and maybe even finally get my craft room organized. So, for right now, things very much the same but looking forward to some fun times in the future.